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School...*sigh*

Well, I finally got my computer built! Instead of bringing it to a place so they could do it for me, I bit the bullet and built it myself with Todd's help. It took about 6 hours due to some other stuff coming up. I needed thermal paste and a new heat sync, so I had to run to Best Buy. I tell people, never buy anything for computers from Best Buy...they overcharge; and as I found out when I went, they're idiots. I walked up to the computer guys that were hanging around. I asked "Where do you guys have your heat syncs and thermal paste?" They looked at each other, and then back at me and went "What's that?". I was like...uhhh...nevermind. lol So I got home, got frustrated, finally got the thing put together and it runs. One bad part is, since my computer was ASUS...they only have hook-ups to the power button and DVD drives of an ASUS motherboard. Meaning my power button and DVD drives don't work, I gotta go ghetto style and turn it on with a screw driver on the 2 prongs. XD Oh well.

But anyways, I started school a few weeks ago and it's my last semester until I get my associate's in Criminal Justice. I can't fuck up anything this semester at all, meaning I can still stream, but it won't be for long depending on how much school work I have. But don't worry, I won't be a stranger. :)

I need to find a job, and my mom said she would help me find one after I graduate. I said it was ok, but honestly, I would hate to be in debt to my mother. She's a demon. No kidding. She is a DEMON. A gossiping hypocritical demon. But I need a job so I can finally just give her this house and find my own....but that's a few years down the road. Who knows what I'll be doing then.

:)

Even More Bad News...

Well, on top of everything breaking in my computer and me not having enough money to fix it, I got laid off at my job today. The store isn't doing as well as they hoped, and they were letting people go. My hours got cut so much when they made their first round of people to let go, I went from 25 to 12 hours a week. I was told I was a great employee, but because I was only 12 hours a week, they couldn't keep me on.

I really am at a loss for words right now. My only source of income is gone, and I'm heading back to school in a few weeks, meaning my availability for any job is cut down to nights only. I have student loans that I need to save up for, so I really have no option for spending money. This includes money for a graphics card and RAM. The graphics card I have in my computer now works, but it causes my computer to constantly crash. It's only a matter of time before it dies completely.

I'm asking anyone, out of the kindness of their heart, if they have any money they can donate me, I would appreciate it so much. I'm already looking for a new job, but in the mean time, I need to pay for gas, food, and other necessities. I know I really have no right to ask, but I'm desperate and I need the help.

I love you guys so much.
<3

Computer Problems...

I just uploaded this audiolog yesterday night, and it explains all the shit that is going on.

People keep telling me to add a donate button on my blog, so I guess I will. I'm not forcing you guys to donate, but if you feel you want to, the donate button is right on the left. Thank you to anyone who donates. <3

I...uhhh...wat.

So, I checked my YouTube last night and I saw this gem in my inbox. It was sent by (not sure if I believe them) another girl gamer to me. I thought I would post it here so you guys can laugh at how she thinks I'm some dumb whore who plays video games for attention. Enjoy!

"First of all, you are fucking retarded. I can't even being to explain to you how fucking outdated it is to STILL be saying the same, mundane shit like "Yes, I'm a girl and I play games. GET OVER IT". Do you seriously think, that when other people play online with you they are going to place both hands on their face and say.."Oh gee! A girl that plays games!" I hate break you out of your delusional exclusive bubble, but there are tons of girls who play games and don't even care to announce to the whole world that they are female. You know why? Because they like playing games, period. They're not looking for attention, which is what you are doing. You give us all a bad name, I hope you know that. For someone online to accidentally refer to you as a 'him', does NOT make them sexist, perhaps it is by habit. When I get referred to as a him, I don't fucking give a shit, do you know why? Because I know it is extremely fucking juvenile to thrive attention from complete strangers online. How many men do you think claim to be women online? You are putting yourself in the same field as them. Okay, if you didn't understand how dumb you are by now, think of this analogy. A fat and unattractive neckbeard approaches you in a grocery store. He says, "HEY! I'M A GUY AND I CAN COOK SO WELL! I can cook ambrosia, angel-food cake, and sushi!". That is what you sound like when you talk about how many games you can play. No. one. CARES! Video games are not gender specific, and as much as you'd like to flutter your eyelashes and say "Don't hit on me you SILLY boys! ^_^", you secretly fucking love it, don't you? And you are the type of girl, I bet, that gets inwardly jealous when another girl joins vent, don't you? And I bet you try so hard to prove you're a female too, that you make unessescary squeaks and giggles. Take it from me, no guy finds that attractive. And by bashing men who may MISTAKENLY refer to you as a male, you are being just as sexist as they are. It's one big fucking double-standard. Learn to respect both genders. I hate people like you so much and you seriously give us such a bad name that I don't even have a picture of myself on my steamprofile, my gender, and I don't go on vent because I am ASHAMED of being a girl who plays, only casually I might add, video games. In retrospect, I respect that you enjoy playing your video games even though you're fucking stupid, but if you want other people to respect you as a PERSON and not a "hawt girl that plays games", don't feel the surging need to fucking boast your gender every 5 minutes.
PS. L4D is pretty much the easiest fucking game to play in the universe. If you are still so bent on impressing the male gender, I suggest you play some counter strike, or ninja gaiden."

I just....I don't know what to say. I have no idea where she got her idea of me from...and I messaged her back "tl;dr".

She messaged me today and said:

"but of course you did, because the words "girl" and "gamer" definitely caught your prepubescent eye :)"

Son...I am confuse. o.O

Famus...?

Well, in case some of you don't know...one of my videos recently got featured on the Left 4 Dead 2 Facebook fanpage. It instantly got a lot of hits, comments, and a whole hell of a lot of attention. I was a little disappointed in the beginning because a lot of the comments on the video were negative toward me and Sarah. Saying we should "get back in the kitchen" and that "we were the most annoying cunts ever". I couldn't help but see them all over the video, and I guess it kind of got to me. I really am conflicted as to if this video being featured everywhere is a good thing or not. Yeah, it got me attention and I got a shit load of subscribers...but it came at a cost to me. I won't go into specifics, but I really am at a loss for words. I've been getting harassed on Steam, YouTube, and the amount of friend requests and messages reach almost 50 a day. I'm ignoring them right now, and I'm still doing damage control on the video...removing comments that are hidden due to negative votes...ect...and I have to say that the amount of negative comments has dropped considerably in the past day...which is nice.
So as for it being a good thing...I really do think it was. I have more fans, more people wanting me to make more stuff. And that's really what keeps me going. :)

Anyways, that aside...I've been working a lot and it's pretty crazy. I work evenings, like 2-10pm, and when I get home it's right on the computer and talking to Todd. He's really helping me map and honestly...I love playing games with him. It's nice to have someone to play with that 1) Doesn't suck and 2) Knows how to have fun.

I need to start planning my next video. :O
*flees*

I Maek Maps!

So, for the few of you who know that I'm working on making a Left 4 Dead map...I decided to first make a Portal 2 custom map so I can practice and get the hang of it before I move on to more challenging maps. I have the 'floor plan' already worked out, and Todd is helping me use Hammer (the authoring tool program). I just hope I'm not too retarded to understand it, and get him frustrated. ;~;

Hmm...what else...My birthday is on Tuesday. Turning 22 and I can't wait to get drunk and not care about anything. IMEANWAT. So yeah...I have the next week off from work for that reason. LOL But there really isn't anything new that's going on.

I've been on a Katy Perry kick recently...and I don't know why.

Rebecca Black removed her Friday video...hmm...maybe she realized that she needs to put that horrid thing behind her and move on. O.O

We can only hope.